Fearlessness

Safely ensconced back in my abode after all the glitz and glam of my trip to LA gives me a great opportunity to reflect on all the fun I had and the wonderful people I met.  This trip was packed with some pretty cool events, an Emmy post party, a Santa Monica restaurant opening and a visit to a studio.  Plus lots of chances to get together with friends.  But through the entire weekend, I realized I’d packed some even more precious than the 8 pairs of shoes I’d brought.  What?  I was there for 3 1/2 days.  What do you expect?  Even more important that these fabulous accessories, I’d brought along my fearlessness.  My audacity.  And I pulled it out and put it on more frequently than my lipstick.  Because of this I didn’t hesitate to walk up to an unknown Emmy winner, ask to hold his statue (they really are heavy-probably 8-10 pounds), hear about his sound work on the show House and then have him offer to take a picture of me holding his award.  Which will most likely be my Christmas card this year!  I talked to and congratulated several other winners, among those were Cherry Jones, an actress who I’d admired for quite a while, to the point of writing her a fan masher letter when I saw her in Doubt.  And here I was congratulating her on her win.  I met the President of a major network and kidded him about some things he said.  I busted someone on her Chicago accent, something I am so aware of as I try to neutralize my own, and it was the lovely actress and animation voice Megan Cavanaugh and we proceed to have a great conversation on trying to get the “chicago” out of our speech.  Then there was the guy on the set of Chuck who so patiently answered all of my numerous questions about sets and shooting and props.  If you’ve ever been with me, you know I ask a lot of questions!  All of these things would never have happened had I let myself get all self conscious and fear being judged.  For some reason, whenever I go somewhere else, I pack my fearlessness and audacity along with me.

The tricky part is to not put them away with the luggage when I get home.  Keep these two traits with me at ALL times, not just when I have nothing to lose in a strange place and amongst strangers.  Charge forward fearlessly even when I know I may see these people again and they may laugh at me behind their smiles.  Forget being judged.  As Virgil said Fortune favors the bold and since I plan on having a lot of success in my future, I’d be better served with fearlessness as my guide.

I can’t believe I brought another Latin saying into this writing, my Dad is just hooting right now.  It’s still a dead language.

And so it begins…

As the poet Virgil said, Look with favor upon a bold beginning.

I have been noodling around with the idea of posting a blog for quite a while now.  I’ve been collecting quotes and anecdotes that inspire and inform me for over a year.  I’ve been trying to get the perfect format, the ideal colors, embedding within my website, all kinds of delaying details down pat.  The trouble is, it’s all busy work.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s very important to think about these things.  It’s all avoidance in the name of branding and control.  You will find I am very much aware of the power of branding, marketing and streamlined messages.  It’s been my career for all of my adult life.  But in my quest to micromanage every aspect of what I put out there, I’ve ended up with a whole lot of nothing.  And when you get down to it, it’s the doing that matters, not the talking about the doing.  One can spend one’s entire life in this pattern and end up at the end with a whole lot of nothing.

So it begins.  It may not be what Virgil had in mind, perhaps not as bold as one would hope.  But it is a beginning.  And thus ends the talking and begins the doing.