My iPod contains over 3500 songs on it. I purchased my iPod used inheriting the music already on there. I’ve also added quite a bit of music on my own. I usually listen to podcasts when I am running, multitasking as always. Lately I’ve started listening to music. And not to pre-planned playlists. I’m playing the list alphabetically, never really knowing what I will hear next. The juxtaposition the songs afford makes me laugh sometimes. This morning it was Beyonce/JayZ followed by My Fair Lady. And yes, I’m usually singing along louder than I realize, as evidenced by the looks I get.
Then the classic Bill Withers song, Lean On Me, with it’s opening organ chords came on. I was immediately transported back to my teenage years, Summertime at the swimming pool, golden couple Crash and Susie and all the really cool kids hanging about. The radio blaring much to the disdain of the golfers teeing off on the first tee just yards away. I’m always amazed when music takes me back. It was like it was yesterday.
This time though I listened, really listened to the lyrics. And they blew me away. I’ve gone through some very challenging times recently both personally and professionally. There were moments it seemed as if I wouldn’t endure them. Most times I felt really alone and scared. Still do every once in a while. Especially the scared part. Hearing those lyrics made me realize I had some amazing friends and support that I’d been leaning on pretty heavily. I’m not good at asking for help, fairly sure my tombstone will read “I’m fine”, even worse at admitting I need help and accepting it when offered. Swallowing my pride isn’t on my list of skills. This time around though, I’ve been leaning on whomever will let me. I realize the lyrics could be referencing a friend, family member, God. Who knows? But the fourth time I’d replayed it this morning, the first verse really stuck with me –And if we are wise, we know that there’s always tomorrow. I’ll get to tomorrow, safe in the knowledge I’m not alone.
Oh and the song that followed? It was also by Bill Withers and was called Use Me. But that’s an entirely different type of post for another day!