Today is an interesting anniversary for me. It was one year ago today that I was laid off from my corporate job as a Sales Manager for a television commercial sales firm. Even though I was planning to leave and had been saving for over a year for this leap of faith, I was still surprised. I sat there with a grin on my face during the meeting because I couldn’t believe my plans were coming together. I’m sure they thought I’d gone over the edge and had security on alert just in case. It was a surreal experience. Not because I wanted it to happen, but because it was happening at all. Being a manager one of my responsibilities was to forecast the month and quarter ahead. I’d been watching the numbers get smaller and smaller as the recession tightened it’s grip around the economy. I thought the powers-that-be would merge us with another division and keep the strongest people. Kind of like what happened when the NFL merged with the AFL. Instead they chose to amputate us. I don’t blame them. Our amputation brought them back almost to breaking even.
The funny thing is, even though I wanted it to happen exactly the way it did, I still went through a depression afterwards. It’s not easy being told you aren’t wanted anymore and that you as an employee aren’t valued. It took me a while to break through that and move forward to my new life. One of the best things I did was take a long driving trip through the south. It was a physical and timing break, a perfect transition from one life to the next.
So here we are 1 year later and I can’t believe it’s been a year already. I am living the life I envisioned for myself, a free lance creative life full of auditions and go-sees and bookings and voiceovers. At this point I really can’t imagine going back to corporate. Hitting this one year mark in important because if I were to go back to my former corporation within a year, I would go right back in as if I’d never left. Back into the health plan, the 401K and the earned vacation. I needed to hit this mark so there’s nothing for me to go back to. Here’s to moving forward!